Yes, I am a sissly la la
Today were were talking about our fears . Everyone has them? Right? I mean – I know I sure do.
I seriously didn’t think any of mine were humorous to try to stifle a giggle – but apparently the people I was having lunch with thought differently.
So -yeah, what of it?
7 RANDOM things that make me fearful/afraid of..
- 1.Cockroaches – Never experienced them until Florida. Ew. Ew and EW. Seriously I saw some on the side of the buildings that I could have put a saddle on. Just .. EW.
- 2. Drowning: Just a little over 4 years ago – my son and I became stuck in a horrible current while floating in the river. IN THE SWIMMING section. That was the only time in my life that I was SO close to dying. It took 5 EMS and volunteers to get us out. The image of my son standing on the shore and hearing him scream is something I will never forget. Ever. That leads me into my next fear..
- 3. Swimming: I will only swim in a pool or a lake with NO currents
- 4. Lizards: They totally SKEEVE me ..
- 6. Driving over LOOOONG bridges.
- 7. Being alone. I hope that I am never alone in my life. That those who love me now, will love me for always.
You? What are YOU afraid of?
Posted by Chrissi @
11:29 am |
So long… farewell…
In just a few short HOURS, our family will be moving across country from Tampa, Florida to just east of Seattle, Washington.
Crazy you say? Well , it’s just about 3200 miles – in a moving van , together ,for 5 days. Indeed , crazy – but very worth it.
Two years ago, our family made the move to Tampa , Florida. The hubs was offered a fantastic job at a trauma hospital . It was an offer we could not turn down. We packed up and made the big move – across country – seriously. ACROSS . THE. UNITED STATES.
We thought this would be a fantastic move , a fresh start. You see, our family has been dealt a real blow. Our youngest son, our sweet little chubby cheeked, smarty pants little man, lost his battle with cancer. The pain from this is hard to put into words – in fact, I don’t believe there are enough words to describe the immense pain a Mommy and Daddy’s heart feels from such a loss.
Sooo, the move was made. The job is and was well worth the move – however, our then 14 year old was miserable. We ripped him ( his words) out of the private school he had been attending from pre-k to half of 8th grade and threw him ( his words, again) into a new school, new people and a new life.
He hated it. He went from our outgoing son to a very unhappy, angry young man. In Washington state he was always the class clown, the popular and fun kid – in Tampa he was silent, made just a few friends and felt like he was not able to fit in. He tried out for varsity basketball and , thank God – he made the team. Hubs and I were sure that would bring him around. Even that, the true love of his life ( being basketball) did not do the trick.
This was his freshman year – a crucial year. Right before our eyes , we were losing another child – emotionally. My heart hurt so bad. I wanted to fix it for him , I wanted to just wrap him into me and hug on him. He wouldn’t let me near him.. ever. I don’t think we really had a whole heartfelt conversation that year at all. Seriously. So angry. SO very angry.
Moving fast forward here – the day that his school let out for summer vacation, he went to Washington state on a fishing trip with my husbands family. We had planned on flying up 3 weeks later for the 4th of July weekend to spend time with our Washington family.
I will never forget our son, greeting us at the aiport. NEVER will that image leave my heart.. and mind. He was smiling, and I am talking ear to ear smile. He hugged me. HE WAS HAPPY TO SEE US!! I was sobbing on the inside, sobbing from happiness. Our son was back. My heart was elated.
The first moment alone with my hub , I shared with him and I cried – how could I take our son back to Florida when I saw such a drastic and emotionally crucial difference in him? How could I put him back in a school where he was so angry, so withdrawn? Oh – and SO above, academically. He was an easy grade and a half above his peers. He was doing work he had done previous years.
Our family has been separated – by choice, for a year. We were SURE that my husband would have been able to relocate within a few months of our son and I moving back “home”.
However, the economy had other plans and we’ve been kept apart. Living apart – parenting apart . Difficult yet very worth making the sacrifice for our son.
After many resumes and a few interviews – my husband WILL be relocating back to Washington state. Finally – back together.
I will be blogging our journey – the hotels we stay in and the sites that we see along the way.
3200 miles of a journey, so very worth doing.
Posted by Chrissi @
8:58 pm |
stubborn much?
Great news – the hubz will be moving back to Washington state. He was officially offered the job last Thursday. For that I am SO happy and thankful for.
Recap: We’ve been living apart for the last year – with occasional visits to either Florida or Washington. Those visits were amazing, emotional and we were unsure of the future. Was I moving back to Florida or was he moving to Washington? We just did not know. .
Current: We just spent the last two weeks together – trying to adapt again. Even though we’ve been married FOREVER, it was quite the eye opener. Very obvious that we have been independent for the last 12 months. Quite frankly, while I enjoyed our time together part of me was extremely sad that the separation has changed “US”. Us as a married couple and as parents.
In all honesty – a small part of me is concerned of the readjustment of living back as a family. I felt like part of me was ripped away in the sense that I became both Mom and DAD – the decision maker, etc. The biggest challenge I see? We are both SO stubborn. I mean STUBBORN.
It was difficult to put him on the plane for Florida this morning but my heart hurts more because I feel that we have changed SO much.
That? Worries me…
xoxoxo
Posted by Chrissi @
10:22 pm |
